Currently Listening Arriving By Chris Tomlin, Steven Curtis Chapman Indescribable see related

i found this prayer that i wrote in chapel on the day of prayer last year. i love it. it is easily my favorite thing that i have ever written.

enjoy the blatent honesty to God.

Oh, My God,

 You know this battle inside of me. Part of me wants to be whatever You want me to be. But part of me wants to be the me that I am comfortable with. The me that is strong, that is lovable, that is confident and secure right where I am. But where I am is not good enough. i am a vast pool of potential. People tell me this, but I know it already. The world tells me that I can be whoever I want, whatever I dream. But that is too easy. It's true, I could be anything I want. But where are you in that? Where am I glorifying You on that broad, narrow path?

  Oh, Lord, show me Your path. The one that is narrow, long, and difficult. Give me your hand and guide my steps. But first, take away my independence, my confidence, my self-assurance. Lord, I see that my strength is my weakness. Make me weak, make me dependent on you. Make me weak so that I may be strong in You. I know that I can shine for You, but not now, not like this.

  MAKE ME SHINE FOR YOU, NOT BECAUSE I WANT TO OR BECAUSE I SHOULD. MAKE ME SHINE FOR YOU BECAUSE I CAN'T HELP BUT SHINE FORTH YOUR LOVE.

Oh God.

Currently Listening Composure By Waking Ashland Edinger see related

  So I figured I should write on here again. Keep the streak alive. Here goes.............

  I decided that I will waste no more time. Ever. I forget where it is, but the bible says to redeem the time. so redeem it I will. It's like I think I have some slacker-king image to uphold. probably not the healthiest mindset to have. So I am changing it. By hook or by crook, or maybe my the hand of God, it is going to change. I think of all that I could do for God and friends and people. The thought of it makes me tremble.

  Just last night, someone told me that I make them smile. That made my day. There is an incredible feeling that comes with putting a smile on someones face. That is the kind of feeling I crave. I want to help people feel special, to help them know the Father loves them. I am now finding so many outlets for this kind of outreach. I can't not be excited!!?!

 It is because of the trying times and the battered emotions that I thank God for the Grace given in the form of each new day and each new face. And I crave to put a new smile on each new face.

first time i have posted in a long, long time. don't really know why.

 so here's all of my deep emotional thoughts:

   i had an unusually good day!

sorry, its 1:45 in the morning and i am really rusty at this.

so sue me.

welp, i have now been back (at cedarville) for a mass total of 19 days. only 19 days,but it seems like so, so much longer. no doubt this has been the toughest 19 days of my life. actually the last 5ish days have been quite good. but the week before that was the worst week of my life. i have never had to deal with death before, let alone one of my best friends. Derek was one of the truest yet craziest guys i have ever known. in many ways i am now attempting to be more like him.

 this last few weeks have been bad enough, but to me it has just been added on to an already unbearably difficult summer. some of you know about the huge things i have left back home. things my family is now trying too deal with without me around. i wish i could be there, but i can't. i just pray they stick to what God has shown them, and keep me in the loop even though i am 700+ miles away.

 anyway this whole derek thing has really just been more that God has put on my plate. but throughout the trials and pains that i have been dealing with, God has placed in my path the perfect words. 2corinthians 12:9 says,"and he said unto me, 'My Grace is sufficient for thee: for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' most gladly, therefore, will i rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of christ may rest in me."

 God has provided me with the strength i need long ago, i just wasn't ready then to apply it to my life. and now that i am fighting the emotional fight of my life, this verse has helped me in ways i can't even quite understand.

i pray that when you come upon adversity in your life, and you will, this verse will comfort you. it has comforted and strengthened me and it will for you too.

How Great Is Our God

hey guys, what is that one thing about God that you can't get over? what is that one thing that amazes you every time you think about  it?

just curious as to what kind of stuff you all will come up with.

 hit me back with an answer. short, long, or whater.